I had taken a leave...

"In Luke 15:17-20 a young man who has badly insulted his father 'comes to his senses'. It is a remarkable turn of phrase, because it implies that we are never truly ourselves or at our best when we are far from God. It implies that when we leave God we take leave of our senses." - Herb Sawatzky

How often do you have 'bad' days? It seems that I have had more than my share the last while... not anything in particular really just an overabundance of sleepless days/nights, probably some PMS, and unfortunately too many days where I haven't spent the time with my Papa... all of the above contribute to a bad day or temporary insanity but I think that the last one is the clincher... we are not ourselves when away from our Papa... this seems to be the turmoil I have felt... I KNOW the truth - and I am pressing into that - singing and praying - HE IS MY JOY - MY ALL IN ALL.... and that is the purpose of my life...

My cousin posted the above quote on her facebook... and I just about glanced over it... my Papa is so incredible the ways that Publish Posthe speaks to me! :)

and so... I am officially no longer on leave of my senses! ;)

swaps...

I was supposed to work day shift today but here I sit at 0235am in the ER waiting for the next patient to come through my door... not because I worked so many hours but because I swapped one of my shifts... Serge doesn't really like nights - and I wanted to go to church.

I am so glad that I did. Church was amazing today - what a great word - difficult but great! Dealing with spiritual sight and how we allow the things of this world to crowd out what should be our greatest love... how we choose to set our idols of this world above our relationship with God... how we shut our own eyes... wow did that ever hit home for me... I've been so tired and just blah that I haven't gone to the word for the food that I needed to revitalize myself - I feel so foolish that I have allowed myself to fall like this... to not make HIM my priority and instead placing myself in that role of being number one.... I feel ashamed to say that - but repent I must... and to my friends I apologize for without HIM I cannot be a good friend...

could this be me?

SO? what do you think? Do you think that this could be me? hmm.. ok maybe I don't look quite like her... but I am feeling that I might like to be her... she's (some random) travel nurse in Hawaii!

I have been thinking that it might be kind of fun to go work in Hawaii or some tropical place during the summer while Matt is not in school? now of course because I am feeling like it I want to go now... like this year... but maybe even next year? hmm... something to pray about! What do you guys think?